Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I'm tired

I have decided that among many other things, I am worth only as much as I allow myself to be. So, if you dont like me, which I know you will, Then you can go suck it. There, I said it. You can go suck it.

How liberating it feels to say that.

Anyways, the reason I bring this up, is because I did not get accepted to the degree program that I wanted to get into at one of the schools that I applied to. Not that I woould want to go to that school anyways, I just feel that I am worth more then that. A lot more then that. Oh well, I dont like that hoitie toitie attitude that that school of music has anyways.

Hoitie toitie. haha.

In any case, I cant play tennis with kevin tonight. Oh no! :( que triste...

I also have a solo tomorrow night at the band concert, so if you would like to come watch me, I would greatly appreciate you doing that for me.

I wish I had asian people commenting on my blog telling me we could go do yoga together sometime.

I'm going to the bathroom now.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Remember when we were in africa?

Wild child, full of grace, savior of the human race.

I remember when that was my favorite song. I rememberr lots of things, like how strong relationships used to be, and how much I liked some people. Now I dont even talk to some of those people anymore, and I spend hours upon hours being with other people. How strange.

In any case, Remember when I was all in a huff about someone? Well, its her birthday today. I'm really not sure what to do about that. I wished her a happy birthday, and I think thats all I'm going to do. I mean, I dont think she deserves anything else from me. I think me being her friend, after what she did to me, is good enough.


I will wait for you.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


isnt it funny that I know what endorphins are because of an episode of medium I watched when I was in 7th grade? I do.

I was wondering what the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you is. Because I want you to do something nicer tomorrow. Do that, and then tell me how you feel.

Friday, March 5, 2010

You need to go

Right now I am typing like an old person< and I find it Quite amusing. Now, I am not. Now, I am. Isnt it funny that You wouldnt be able to tell that if I didnt tell you? I feel like that is the nature of technology, You can be incredibly terrible at something, but technology evens the playing field, because in the end, all the answers, or all the work amounts to the same thing.

I have recently begun to listen to a lot more music, and I enjoy it greatly.

I like everything to do with music, It is my life, and It will be for a long time. I just need to make sure I remember that its just music, and not a job.

I think I am a personality trait.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


over the weekend I saw a speech about goosebumps, and I really liked it.

I was just thinking about all the things that give me goosebumps, or make the hair on the back of my neck stand up, because those are the things that I want more of.

Thing 1. Whenever I watch paul pott's first audition on youtube.

Thing 2. Whenever I watch the miracle on ice.

Thing 3. Whenever I'm on stage, and a chord rips through the band, and its just so amazingly perfect. (thats only happened once)

Thing 4. When I make people smile.

Thing 5. When someone does something incredibly nice for me, like comes to my house just to give me a hug.

Those are just a few of the things that make me really happy, and I hope that you care about me enough to read through all of them.

I'm gonna go watch tv right now.