Friday, February 26, 2010

I'm thinking

I'm thinking that I do NOT appreciate being ignored. In fact, it is the last thing that I want to happen. I am glad that it has stopped, and I hope that things can continue to get better.

In other news, I have been having a lot of good conversations with the person who I am sitting next to. I think were good friends. I'm glad for that, because she seems like a good person to be friends with.

Also... I'm on the verge of having two C's. I hate talking about my grades on here, because thats just dumb, but I am on the verge of having two C's, and that has NEVER happened before.

I really wish things could go back to the way that they were. Back when I missed you, and you missed me. Back when I wanted to be with you, and you wanted to be with me. Back before you thought about it.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

That needs to turn blue!

I'm really tired.

We should all just be happy.

todays lesson:

Learn to let go.

I'm upset right now

Yes, I'm upset right now. Mainly because I feel like I havent been given a chance.

I dont know how to describe how I feel.... just know that I'm not happy right now.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Its official

Its valentines day today. As much as I dont like valentines day, its kind of a depressing day to be single on. I dont much like it. Oh well, Ive decided that I'm not single right now. I'm taken. I just cant do anything about it. There. done.

Also, I'm super excited for college. And the next few weeks. I feel like change is gonna happen.

In other news, I too deleted my twitter account. Now... on to facebook. That will be a lot harder for me to do, but I think I can muster up the courage eventually.

I hope all this texting turns out to be something, instead of nothing. I mean, it is something right now, but I want something more.

Damien rice and Andrew bird... I like them.

I now have to go to the bathroom.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Happy

I think... that right now I am happy.

I like meeting new people. I like to have the courage to meet new people. I like when other people like me.

New Philosophy:

Stop living in "what if" and start living in what is.

To put it short, I'm glad shes talking to me again, because that was quite a sad couple of days for me. It even brought me to tears once.

Also, music is the greatest thing that has ever existed, and that ever will exist, and I am proud to want to make that my career.

You didnt answer me...

Why do you get up in the morning?

Saturday, February 6, 2010

baudition

Today, I played for my first teacher. It was so incredibly nerve wracking, I almost peed myself. or passed out. Normally nervousness is not a place where I like to be, but today, I got there, and I stayed there for a while.

Thats really not where I ever want to be again, so I'm going to do everything in my power to stay clear of that place.

In other news... Yesterday I was a single lady in front of the whole school... Lets just say that I'm a star. I big one. and I'm only getting bigger.

thats enough about me.

let me ask you a question.

Why do you get up in the morning?

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

not a fan.

not a fan of the last couple days. not a fan at all.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

this is hard.

Its hard to realize what I did wrong. I'm really not sure. maybe tomorrow will tell.

I really lke couchsurfing. and if you are worried about it, stop worrying about "what if" and try to embrace what is. I can assure you, things will be a lot easier for you.

I really like this person. evidently, they dont want to talk to me anymore. I dont really understand. I hope they accept my gift, because that would make me etremely sad if they didnt.

I am now going to sleep. let us hope that everything works in my favor. it usually doesnt, but I feel like times are changing.