Tuesday, May 25, 2010


I watched glee tonight, and the sound cut out at the most intense part. I was sooooo upset. I literally almost cried. That was the first time I almost cried tonight.

the next two times were later in that episode, and the last has been for the last 10 minutes.

I want nothing more than for someone to be making breakfast for me in the morning when I get out of the shower. I want them to be making breakfast, and telling me that I'm going to do awesome.

I also want to stop with the damn complaining.

tomorrow will go great, with or without a parental figure there to support me.

goodnight everyone.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

this is me.

Today, I realize that I am only the music. I am only what I allow to shine through. I am not the praise that I get, I am not the criticism that I get. I am what is inside me. Me is the music, me is my friends who love me for who I am. Me is what makes my innermost thoughts. Me is what makes me happy.

I spend all my time thinking about being in a relationship. Bah! this is not good, this is not who I am. I dont need someone to make me happy, I should be enough for myself. and when my other half comes along, well be able to survive, together, and separate. Thats what I need.

I hope you are out there somewhere. Maybe Ive already met you, and we just dont know it yet.

p.s. if theres anyone who actually reads this, You are a super cool person. because you know me.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

This is not me.

I really dont know how to feel about my life recently.

There are a few people that I value above all others, and it seems that one of them is tossing me aside. I dont think they realize it, but I do.