dear most beautiful woman I have ever had the good fortune to lay my eyes on.

tonight, I am done with you.

end.

Siddhartha

I checked out my favorite book from the library again. I love this book so much. Its practically my bible.

Today, I realize that I want to play music for sure for the rest of my life. Its the only thing that will make me happy. I also realize that I'm tired of being alone. Its like that song by neil young...

"I need someone to love me the whole day through..."

I'm tired of not having that...

In any case, I must go to sleep, as I spent the wee hours of this morning watching the skies for meteors. It was quite amazing, but now it is time for me to go to sleep.

I wonder why she can tell me she loves me one night, and not any other night. It makes me quite sad. Its as if she knows what I want, and purposely is denying it to me.

goodnight. I love you.

the chain rule

The chain rule states that you must work from the outside in. I really dont know anything else. It all goes over my head.

Tonight, I feel angry. I want to stop feeling angry. It just doesnt work I guess.

Tonight, I want love.

My eyes hurt.

I'm really excited for this weekend, and I have concluded that there is nothing that will stop me from having a blast.

I want nothing more than to be able to hold your hand and have it mean something more than I'm holding your hand. If I could have that, if even for a split second, I would be the happiest boy on the planet. I like it when things have meaning.

In this very instant, I wish I could make you happy.

Remember that I love you more than anything.

goodnight.